I got it all but I feel so deprived. I go up, I come down, and im emptier inside. Tell em where is this thing that I feel like I'm missing and why can't I let it go. Theres gotta be more to life than chasing down every temporary high to satisfy me; 'cause the more that I'm tripping down thinking there must be more to life, well it's life...but I'm sure there's gotta be more than wanting more. Im searching for something that's missing!! There's gotta be more, I'm wanting more, I'm feeling like there's something I miss.
I just wanna get it overwith. Tears from behind my eyes; but I do not cry. Feels like I'm starting all over again, the last * months were just pretend. It hurts to want everything and nothing at the same time.
And you know it breaks my heart to see you standing in the dark waiting there for me to come back. I'm too afraid to show. I don't wanna be stranded.
Nothing's fine I'm torn. I'm all out of faith. This is how I feel. I'm cold and I am shamed lying naked on teh floor. Ilusion never changfed into something real. I'm wide awake and I cant see the perfect sky is torn. You're a little late, I'm already torn. I dont care. I have no luck. I dont miss it all that much.
I wish I could know the directions that I take. Show me what is for, make me understand it. I've been crawling in the dark looking for the answer. Is there something more than what I've been handed? Is it ok to use my heart and not my eyes to navigate the darkness? Will the ending be ever coming suddenly? Will I ever get to see the ending to my story? How much further do I have to go? How much longer untill I finally know? 'cause I'm looking and I just can't see what's infront of me.
Save my life won't you help me? Save my life can you hear me?
My feelings I hide. My dreams I can't find. I'm loosing my mind. I'm falling behind. I can't find my place. I'm loosing my faith. I'm all over the place. I'm lost inside.
I am young and I am free. But I get tired and I get weak. How does it feel to be different from me? Are we the same? How does it feel?
What a mess, what a marble. Im sad, sad, sad, small, alone, scared. This is all that I can do. I'm done to be me. Sad, scared, small, alone, beautiful. It's supposed to be like this, I accept everything, it's supposed to be like this. It's okay, I'm small, I'm divine, I'ts beautiful and it's coming and i'ts already here and i'ts absolutely perfect!
Restless tonight 'cause I wasted the light. It's nothing I planned, and not that I can. If I traded it all, if I gave it all away for one thing, just for one thing would'nt that be something. Even though I know, I don't wanna know, well I guess I know, I just hate how it sounds.
Why do they always do this to me? Why couldn't you just see through me? It's not supposed to feel this way. It's not supposed to hurt this way. Are you and me still toguether? Tell me D'you think we can alst forever? Tell me. Why? Let's play a different game than what we're playing. Do you expect me to believe I was the only one who'd fall? Go and think about whatever you need to think about. Go on and dream about whatever you need to dream about, and come back to em when you know just how you feel.
Goodbye to you. Goodbye to everything I thought I knew. You were the one I loved, the one thing that I tried to hold on to.
...And when the stars fall I will lie awake. You are my shooting star...
:'(
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